But, I’m really afraid of heights.
I feel like such a burden to my father. I’m just this walking disappointment. I’m always adding to my dad’s stress. It’s gotten so bad he’s having panic attacks. His blood pressure has sky rocketed. I’m killing him… I’d rather die than have him see me as the failure I am.
2.) Drug overdose
1.) Gun shot to the head
Now all I need to do is pick and make sure it’s effective.
But, I’m huddled in my bed dying inside because they don’t believe me. I’m sitting here, hating myself because of all the lies I’ve told. I’m the little girl who cried wolf. Now that I’m telling the truth, no one thinks it’s true. All I want to do is die and unburden them from their daily stress.